I am debating blogging again at my wordpress account. I think i’ll still try and use this (even though I haven’t for a while) for short posts but I hope you guys will check out my other blog! xoxo
I know I’ve been a terrible blogger!! I truly am going to update but my laptop is in the shop right now so I’m gonna do my best :)
I’m on a cruise/vacation until the 4th so I’ll be posting again when I get home! I plan on writing a review on Bethenny Frankel’s audiobook and updating everyone on some of my own struggles/victories :) xoxoxo
Breakfast at home! Plain Greek yogurt, kashi go lean, banana, cinnamon, a little dried fruit/nuts! Vcjlnnn
If you think you are beaten, you are,
If you think you dare not, you don’t.
If you like to win, but you think you can’t,
It is almost certain you won’t.
If you think you’ll lose, you’re lost,
For out in the world we find,
Success begins with a fellow’s will.
It’s all in the state of mind.
If you think you are outclassed, you are,
You’ve got to think high to rise,
You’ve got to be sure of yourself before
You can ever win a prize.
Life’s battles don’t always go
To the stronger or faster man.
But sooner or late the man who wins,
Is the man who thinks he can.
~ C. W. Longenecker ~
[classic and cliche.. but i don’t care!]
Going from being significantly underweight to being on the higher end of “healthy” [according to BMI, which has flaws] has definitely given me some perspective. When I initially began to gain weight above what I felt comfortable with after recovery (which was probably still too low for me), I intensely desired to go back to my initial recovery BMI. But Instead of achieving it, I continued to gain more weight.
I realized that fighting the weight I was at only made things worse. Of course I look back now and wish I would have been ok with the small increase in weight (in reality it was a really good weight for me), but instead of having regret, I recently realized I need to use it to my advantage. If I continue to have the mindset that I want need to get my weight down, I am basically setting myself up for failure. That feeling of urgency to decrease my weight causes stress and sets my own standards too high. It deters me from focusing on how I need to treat myself now.
I’m finally at a place where I don’t care if I’m as thin as I was right after I reached a healthy weight. That is BIG. I know that what I really need is stability in my eating… but that will not happen if I restrict. Even though ideally I’d like to lose a few pounds, if I keep having this dichotomous idea of what foods are good/bad and never allowing myself to feel good about a decision to have a treat, then I’m only going to continue with the unstable eating.
I know how tempting it is to want to strive for extreme thinness, but the reality is that happiness doesn’t come with that thinness. Happiness only comes when you accept yourself for who you are because that is when you will truly take care of yourself and make decisions based on what makes you feel good and healthy.
I also want to post about emotions and food but I think I will save that for later procrastination :)
