Sometimes I hate to admit that i’m struggling. I think part of it is shame: I feel like I shouldn’t be struggling anymore. I just keep noticing that I am dominated by two different voices. I have the rational voice, that knows exactly how I should be taking care of myself and what I need to do to be happy/healthy/etc. But then there’s the emotional voice that is holding me back.
How am I supposed to take care of myself when I have so little self-confidence sometimes? Everyone says, including me, that you have to love yourself if you want to change yourself… but how do you just starting loving yourself? I’m not trying to be a downer, I’m just trying to be honest. I so badly want to reach my goals, but I think I need to start with just accepting myself.. I guess I just don’t really feel like I know how. pathetic right?
Some days are easier than others..that’s for sure.
Writing this even helps though.. sometimes admitting there’s a problem is the only way to fix it.